this man never fails at making my day brighter. if you ever find a best friend who can love you as unconditionally as mine does, you better keep em. because of him i stay grounded & he calls me out on every single thing i do, good or bad. screw the best friend label, he is my brother & will always and forever be that.
he also helped me mend the crack in the latest breaking of my heart, so i am eternally grateful for him.
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Oh you know just chillin 12th row at the giants game with my mum :) (Taken with instagram)
As finals approach, I am yet again having sleepless nights & restless days. Last night I stayed up reading chapters in three books to catch up to stuff I missed. Along with that, I have to deal with issues that are fogging up the tunnels of my brain & possibly my heart as well. I don’t know if the tumblr world cares, but about a month ago my boyfriend of about 3 years and I decided that the relationship we had is not fair for the both of us. We had been living in separate cities for about 1.5 years now and everything had changed. I will not go into much detail, but it just was not fair. Today, in attempt to be an adult, I asked him to lunch. We ate & chatted about nonsense, but it was just what I needed to unclog my mind for the time being. I forgot how nice it was to go to lunch with him. Not saying that I wish we were back together, but man it feels nice to have that someone who knows you inside & out to be back home and have lunch with me.
Tomorrow, I will be going to the Giants game with my mum. It was supposed to be for me and Dzu, but as we can see that fell through. I am pretty excited since my mom and I haven’t been on great terms lately and I hope that tomorrow will shed some good light on our relationship.
I have finals on Thursday, next Monday, and next Tuesday. It is really time to buckle down and get my shit done… then it is 2 weeks of relaxing until I start summer class in June. I play hard, but I grind even harder.
- Whatever you do, don’t just show up at their house…they run around in their underwear just like we do.
- Don’t cheat on them. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out.
- Beware of every single male relative and all guy friends. Any…
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Yesterday, after about 2 shots of tequila… my mind all of a sudden cleared up. I realized that the situations I have been putting myself into were the wrong ones & I need to stay away from them. I really need to just focus all my attention on school & work and on my friends & family. Lets put it like this, I realize I deserve better (hell, my best friend says I deserve the best) than what I have been getting. Yes, it was great to feel the feelings I have for the past couple weeks and to finally see myself smile after the fallout of my past relationship & anticipate good things coming my way, but what I just heard and witnessed this past weekend totally opened my eyes to see that I can not be doing this. I really need to cut ties with you & with what you are about. Yes you are a great person and I would have loved to see what this could have potentially blossomed into, but I will not be that girl & I am too strong and independent to turn into that damn girl.
End rant.
Currently listening to All Cried Out by Allure & 112. I used to love this song so much when I was younger. I listened to it after every time I got into a fight with the guys I was with. It was like therapy to me. I’m listening to it right now… not trying to be emo or anything but it makes so much sense to me right now. “Leaving me all alone. Don’t you know my tears will cause an inferno. Romance up in flames, why should I take the blame? You were the one who left me neglected.” I think this is one of the greatest songs. So much emotion behind it & it always seems to make me shed a tear.
I believe I hit that point in time where I don’t know what in the world I am doing anymore. I know that I am going to school & work & trying to do my best at doing both. I do know what I want to be when I grow up. I know where I want to go to school. But honestly, I don’t know what I am doing. Maybe with the latest fallout I’ve opened my eyes but I don’t know what I see. I mean I am having a great time doing “me” and “finding myself”, but I have never ever been in this position before in my entire life. I have never once felt so free in my life and felt like I could do whatever I put my mind to. It is a little scary, but I will try and push through.
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As seen on Facebook. (posted by Homestead Survival)
A sweet lesson on patience.
A NYC Taxi driver wrote:
I arrived at the address and honked the horn. After waiting a few minutes I honked again. Since this was going to be my last ride of my shift I thought about just driving away, but instead I put the car in park and walked up to the door and knocked.. ‘Just a minute’, answered a frail, elderly voice. I could hear something being dragged across the floor.
After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 90’s stood before me. She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940’s movie.
By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered with sheets.
There were no clocks on the walls, no knickknacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard
box filled with photos and glassware.
‘Would you carry my bag out to the car?’ she said. I took the suitcase to the cab, then returned to assist the woman.
She took my arm and we walked slowly toward the curb.
She kept thanking me for my kindness. ‘It’s nothing’, I told her.. ‘I just try to treat my passengers the way I would want my mother to be treated.’
‘Oh, you’re such a good boy, she said. When we got in the cab, she gave me an address and then asked, ‘Could you drive
through downtown?’
‘It’s not the shortest way,’ I answered quickly..
‘Oh, I don’t mind,’ she said. ‘I’m in no hurry. I’m on my way to a hospice.
I looked in the rear-view mirror. Her eyes were glistening. ‘I don’t have any family left,’ she continued in a soft voice..’The doctor says I don’t have very long.’ I quietly reached over and shut off the meter.
‘What route would you like me to take?’ I asked.
For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator.
We drove through the neighborhood where she and her husband had lived when they were newlyweds She had me pull up in front of a furniture warehouse that had once been a ballroom where she had gone dancing as a girl.
Sometimes she’d ask me to slow in front of a particular building or corner and would sit staring into the darkness, saying nothing.
As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said, ‘I’m tired.Let’s go now’.
We drove in silence to the address she had given me. It was a low building, like a small convalescent home, with a driveway that passed under a portico.
Two orderlies came out to the cab as soon as we pulled up. They were solicitous and intent, watching her every move.
They must have been expecting her.
I opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door. The woman was already seated in a wheelchair.
‘How much do I owe you?’ She asked, reaching into her purse.
‘Nothing,’ I said
‘You have to make a living,’ she answered.
‘There are other passengers,’ I responded.
Almost without thinking, I bent and gave her a hug.She held onto me tightly.
‘You gave an old woman a little moment of joy,’ she said. ‘Thank you.’
I squeezed her hand, and then walked into the dim morning light.. Behind me, a door shut.It was the sound of the closing of a life..
I didn’t pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly lost in thought. For the rest of that day,I could hardly talk.What if that woman had gotten an angry driver,or one who was impatient to end his shift? What if I had refused to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away?
On a quick review, I don’t think that I have done anything more important in my life.
We’re conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments.
But great moments often catch us unaware-beautifully wrapped in what others may consider a small one.
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I’m trying to pull this paper out of my ass for the next hour so that I can enjoy going out with my girl Michelle Lava. I haven’t been out with her in a while & I desperately need to catch her up on my life… I enjoy how I can call her or Virgie up and they will immediately say yes to going out for us to talk.
As of right now, I am living my life how I want it. I am studying and going to school but enjoying having a social life as well. I am going out with classmates, old friends, and even co-workers. I couldn’t have asked for better people to surround me during these difficult past weeks. Everyone I am close to knows how hard it has been for me & I am truly grateful for all of you. You guys are amazing.
I watched both Linkin Park & Incubus last year and now this year they are going to have a concert together… lets be real I just came.
